I know what I have to do. I know I have to kill them.

Put like that, its frightening. Its solid. Their’s no getting around it.

Its just there.

Don’t think I’m trying to justify this. I know what I’m doing and I take responsibilityes for my actions. That’s what makes me different to a lot of people especially these days. Everyone thinks they can do and say what they want and nothing comes from it. Well, I’ve never thought that way. Never. Not once. I know what this means and I can deal with. I can except it.

That’s one of the things I’ve always written about: making choices and excepting responsibility for the consequences. I am a firm believer in that like I said.

So I know what I have to do if I’m have to any chance of success. Well, not any chance. That’s melodramatic. To increase my chances, I know I have to kill them. Think about it and it makes sense. The less their are of them, the easier it should be for me. After all, publishing is a business. Supply and demand. Customer satisfaction. Filling a gap in the market. Stuff like that.

I’m not a business man. Don’t get that idea. I just know the basics of how this industry works. I mean, its obvious, isn’t it? Anybody who can type puts together a terrible story because they think its easy; they fill it with forgettable characters, a deritative story and an obvious plot. Then they send it to the first publisher they find, not bothering to examine the publishers’ submission guidelines or consider the role of an agent. And immediately, there taking up time and space for authors like me. They’re work goes into the slush pile; it sits there until someone has chance to go through it and with in reading a page, the work is tossed in the bin. The reader picks up another sample and again it’s in the bin. Do that five times, ten, twenty and see how keen your to pick up another letter and badly written synopsis. Even if the reader made it too my sample, the chances are they would have lost interest by then, so they won’t give the work the attention it deserves.

So it ends up in the bin.

And I’m back to square won.

Thats why I have to do this. That’s why there isn’t a choice.

I know of hundreds, probably thousands of other writers. Being a member of an online writers forum has its benefits. All I have to do is work my way through them, then start on the other writers, the ones at work, the ones sitting at home alone right now, hammering out what they think will be the next great novel while being completely unable to admit their just wasting their time as well as the time of the publishers and agents.

As well as mine for that matter. If they’d just give up and get on with the rest of the lives–the job, the family and loved ones–instead of insisting they can write when its’ so horribly obvious they cannot, if they could do that, then there would be no need for this. It’s a shame they’ve brought this on themselves but what other way is there? Honestly, what choice do I have? If there was any other way, I’d would take it. Happilly. But this is how it is and I have to except this responsibility. I can do that. I must do that. For the good of my books, all of them in the corner. If they are to have a higher chance of success, it’s fair I give myself more opportunityes.

So where to start? I have thought about being logical and methodical, thus starting at A and working my way through the alphabet. But of course, that would make it easy for the police to find me. Being honest, I’d did wonder if they would understand. After all, I would only be ridding the world of people who don’t really matter but I don’t think I’m sure if I can take that chance. So its best to to be careful, isnt it. With that in my mind, I will start with a B, I think. Then go to an M. yes. Chopping and changing throughout the alphabet will be the way to do this.

It will take me a long time. I know that and I am fine with that. It will be good work. Work that matters. Work that will do good and not just for me. Getting rid of people who think they can do something and obviously can not admit they can’t do it will help change those left behind here into thinking and knowing there place just like I know my place is too write.

So I’ll do it. I’ll start looking for the first one tomorrow. A. Their name will start with a A.

After that, a M.

Then may be a D.

After that, I’m not sure. May be I’ll look for a writer who’s name starts with a Z.

Just to keep it interesting.